Happiness

I didn't know how hard moving was going to be. I really thought it was going to be a piece of cake. I want to put a special thanks out to my sister-in-law. She has been amazing to me. We have spent so much time together and it has been a blast. There is something though about having your own friends come into town.

I really thought I was happy. I had and have all the excitement of the kids and my friend/sister-in-law Erica to cover up me not being happy. I really thought I was. I consume my time with spending time with family so that I don't have to think about the move and everyone I left back home.

Anyway....

I had a friend come and visit on Tuesday and it was amazing. Jamie and her family came to visit me. We wine to to the Opry Mills Mall and spent the day there. We reminisced and I spent time with the kids. It was great. We talked for hours at the house. We were up til 3 am just talking. It was awesome. I couldn't remember how long it's been since I have felt that way. So my friend leaves and I didn't realize how bad it was going to be. I cried like a little baby and then I was sick and tired and depressed. Then I spoke to Isaiah and I decided to do my Jesus calling. It was so crazy. Satan wants me to be this way. He wants me to be depressed and think that my life isn't good. Well you know what Satan I am done with you controlling my happiness. My happiness is not based on Satan but on God and what He has given me and what He has done for me and how He has transformed my life.

Jesus Take the Wheel

So I am not going to lie. It has been a while since I did any kind of Bible reading or Bible study. Plain and simple I haven't been in the word. Well I went to go watch television this morning and something wasn't right. Nothing was coming on. So I sat there for a few minutes and decided if it didn't work after a few minutes than I was going to have to find something else to do. Well I decide that this was a God thing. My friend Isaiah has been telling me that I need to finish my 90 Days with Jesus so that we can start James together. Well I haven't done that book since a little before I left for Tennessee. So I decided to go get the book and start working in it. Good thing I did because it was about staying in the word everyday. It was based on Luke 8:4-15. About how the seeds and depending on what type of ground they were on they could take in God's word and you that to grow with. But each one couldn't do that because the type of ground it was on. I figured out that I am the seed that fell among the thorns. Since I got here I have fallen away in what the world wants me to be and I know that's wrong and that isn't me. "Distractions of all kinds is our biggest challenge in this pursuit. The distracted hearer chokes on his or her own appetites." - Beth Moore. Which then made me do a search on Jesus taking control and leading me where he wants me to be. So I remembered that Carrie Underwood had her song about Jesus taking the wheel. He can take my wheel.



Here are the lyrics.

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy
With the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning
On a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
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And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat
Sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, ooh