Happiness

I didn't know how hard moving was going to be. I really thought it was going to be a piece of cake. I want to put a special thanks out to my sister-in-law. She has been amazing to me. We have spent so much time together and it has been a blast. There is something though about having your own friends come into town.

I really thought I was happy. I had and have all the excitement of the kids and my friend/sister-in-law Erica to cover up me not being happy. I really thought I was. I consume my time with spending time with family so that I don't have to think about the move and everyone I left back home.

Anyway....

I had a friend come and visit on Tuesday and it was amazing. Jamie and her family came to visit me. We wine to to the Opry Mills Mall and spent the day there. We reminisced and I spent time with the kids. It was great. We talked for hours at the house. We were up til 3 am just talking. It was awesome. I couldn't remember how long it's been since I have felt that way. So my friend leaves and I didn't realize how bad it was going to be. I cried like a little baby and then I was sick and tired and depressed. Then I spoke to Isaiah and I decided to do my Jesus calling. It was so crazy. Satan wants me to be this way. He wants me to be depressed and think that my life isn't good. Well you know what Satan I am done with you controlling my happiness. My happiness is not based on Satan but on God and what He has given me and what He has done for me and how He has transformed my life.