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I hate when there is something that alters my mood so much. I said something's that hurt someone and the only reason I did it is because I was hurting. Feeling this way makes me so upset. I am usually a very happy person. I do a very good job of not letting things bother me. But, when there is something wrong. I can tell. It's like a switch. A little light switch and when it's on I am very very happy and nothing can tear me down. Sometimes though the switch goes in the middle and I am still okay but I get lonely sometimes. Then there are times when it gets completely shut off. No light, nothing can change how I feel. I feel so lonely no matter who is around me. I just feel like I don't have friends. I want to not feel this way. But, when I do I seem to always hurt those closest to me. That's where I get in the most trouble. So let me first hand apologize to those I have hurt. I am not that person. I am normally a very good friend and would bend over backwards for any of you. Please don't ever think that I would ever intentionally hurt you. Friends are too valuable to me, that if I didn't have you guys in my life I don't know where I would be. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. If I did then it would be easy to just change what is wrong with me.

Love,

Me!!!!